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Jun 5, 2004
DINNER DANCE '04 WAS DA SH*T! It was so much freakin fun. Ms. Keefe was a bad girl. She didn't sit with us. And it was just so much fun. Never did I ever think that I would see Mr. Johnson dance. LMFAO! It was so hilarious. Omfg, it was great. But idk, did they play any Blink 182 after I left? Someone tell me. But our class song was so dumb, Burn by Usher. Well, I've g2g now. TTUL.
~*Hugs & Kisses*~
Ps: I wish he knew.
Posted at 10:55 am by shann69
May 31, 2004
Someone I wish I could Hold
I wish that when I was sad I could just run to you and be held. No not you Marty, sry, but I'm over you. I just really need that certain someone. Not someone that I'm gonna get married to, no. But just a boyfriend who I can be around when I need to. Someone who I can trust. I learned a whole heck of a lot about trust this weekend. Nothing anyone needs to know though. But I just really do wish, that I could just run and find him when I need to. Someone who gets along with all of my other friends. Not that "super special" someone. No, that's someone who you would get married too. But just that "special" someone. Like Amy W. said, "I know that you need one. Cuz you've been having a really hard time with life. And being your sister. I'm gonna find you the best one out there."
~*Love*~
PS: Where ever he is out there. I hope that he gets a chance to really meet the real me. And I know who I would like to be that someone, but I don't think he would want to be my boyfriend.
Posted at 03:42 pm by shann69
May 26, 2004
Maybe everyone was right. Just maybe. "You should just give up on him." I wish I could. But I just can't. My mind has him in there, and my mind won't let those thoughts go. Yep. And Marty. I totally understand you. And hope you don't mind. But Marty, I'm gonna put some of our convo in here. I won't put ur screen name though.
but im sry ive already decided that ure too good of a friend to me, and i dont want to endanger that by goin out cause if we break up than there is a chance that we might not be friends anymore, believe me i know from expirience. and idk what i would do if i didnt have u as a friend < Marty
And I totally believe in that chance that you talked about. But as my friend, ? (not saying names) says, "you're gonna still end up flirting like crazy". lol. It feels really good to know that you don't know what you would do without a friend like me. thanx.
Posted at 08:01 pm by shann69
May 24, 2004
Well, my horoscope says that I should tell how I feel about my love/crush. So I'm going to. And I hope that he listens.
Each time I look out the window, I normally see a girl with her guy, or some crush of hers. And at camp, I'm the same way. Each time I see that. I always wish that was you and me. It would be prolly the best thing to ever happen to me. I wouldn't keep thinkin' 'bout running away, cuz I would know that I would be in your arms that coming weekend. It would just be so nice to finally know that I was being loved by someone else than my family. I just really wish Marty, that you would be that guy who takes my hand in the rain, and give me a hug when I arrive at camp, etc. But everyone tells me that you won't because you don't wanna have a girl. You want to just mess around w/ girls. But I know that that's not you at all. And everyone thinks that you steal all the attention from everyone, and if you do, oh well. They'll get over it. But just know, that I really need you. Cuz each day I see Amanda walk down the street with her boyfriend, I always wish that it's me and you. So maybe, who knows, we will one day be in each other's arms. Atleast I hope we will.
~*Love*~
Posted at 05:52 pm by shann69
What really happens at my house....
I figured I should first start by tellin' a little bit about what usually happens each night at my house. And if you do continue to read this, I wish that everyone only talks to me about this. Thank you.
Each night I come home from school, or dance, whatever. And I do my homework. Then afterwords, normally I get on the computer. But sometimes, I can't, cuz I get told to do the dishes, then after I do them, I try to get on the computer, but my mom says no. And If I even do the smallest complaining, I get threatened to get smacked 'cross the face. And I'll walk away, and go downstairs, and bitch about here, and take out my anger on a wall. I've punched thru a wall before. I did it during the summer so that no one would know. I mean, my mom has started to lighten up about things, ever since my dad took my side, and I stood up to her. I mean, although I got grounded for a month and a half, it was worth it. I don't get threatened as much. Only really by my lil brother, who thinks that he controls me. And my family I think tends to believe the same. All except my grandma & grandpa, and my aunt & cousin. They are all on my side. Thank god. I have to do almost everything for him. I had to tie his shoes once! and he is eleven! So.....that's what usually happens. but it'll all change. When tonight at dinner, I start yellin. And I'm gonna get my way too.
~*Hugs & Kisses*~
Posted at 11:29 am by shann69
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